I'm not going to bother blanking this out as I really do not have the patience to.
However, if anyone is checking this, I might as well come out and say that I have sought psychiatric help since January for both my unhealthy coping mechanisms and the fact that I am easily swept into delusional conspiracies that were often fantastical and untrue. This, obviously lead to racist and sexist groups on Twitter... and I'll let you guess the natural progression of that. While I will say that I was not in the correct mindset, I ultimately have autonomy over my actions and take responsibility for the words I said.
In regards to my persona, and the art made of her: I experienced a lot of child sexual abuse as a child both in real life as well as being groomed online. While some parties involved with this problem do know and understand this, I believe it should not be aired to the public. However, this does not excuse the fact that cope art is inherently an unhealthy coping mechanism. Dealing with this trauma has been extremely difficult, and one of the driving reasons I have sought help (other than paranoia and delusions, of course.)
In addition to getting psychiatric help, I am now medicated for paranoia/delusions. Which has definitely helped with 'going down the rabbit hole' of conspiracy theories.
I am sincerely sorry to everybody I hurt with my actions. I do not have anything to explain for the rest of the stuff, as it speaks for itself. I know this note is miniscule compared to the things that I have done, but in a community where people 'lay low' for a few months... or days... under a different name, only to come back, I felt like I owed the community a note on what I was doing.
I do not intend to come back to the closed species community. Not under the name Cherryguro, and not under any other moniker. It was very unhealthy for my spending addiction and I had spent thousands of dollars on pixels that I eventually traded for less than they were worth or giving away entirely. I also believe that I should not get a "second chance," based on the severity of my actions.
Do not take that message above though as a "I'm going to go be shitty in another community." No, that's not the case. I genuinely wish to change my behavior and have stepped back from large social circles until I can get a grip on myself.
The designs I do currently own are publicly not for trade and most likely never will be. My original characters are more than pixels to me.
Thanks for Reading
-Cherryguro
EDIT on 5/8/2021
I cannot believe I would have to add onto this, but here I am. I am not talking to batpudding, nor have I since January. What he did was his problem alone and I had no hand in "helping" him write a statement. While it is true I asked Wyatt to let him in into the server, this is because I felt bad for him and I did not have the energy to talk to him as much as he seemed to want me to. It was nothing about "grooming minors" or anything like that, and I had no idea he was acting inappropriately with 14-year-old kids. If you would like a DM archive of our messages, please message my DeviantArt. Thanks.
Lastly, I'd like to ask that people keep my name out of their mouth unless it's about stuff that I have actually done. I have done a lot of shit. There's no need to make stuff up about me.
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